Breaking Point

So this weekend was somewhat of a breaking point for me. Not really in a good way, but a way that I just have had it with the way things have been going in my life in the last couple of months. Not everything has been really bad or not gone our way. Somethings have in fact worked out and been real provisions from God. Like the fact that I received my LME license. Rachel got a little increase in wage at her job. Isreal is really healthy and has no issues. I would say that there is a lot of little things that we can be thankful for. Then there is the other side of things that really gets to me. For the last six months we have had to pay for at least one unexpected thing each month that wasn't cheap! We could have used the extra money to catch up! The thing that really bothered me, was this month we had the right front wheel bearing go out on the 4Runner. I was going to buy Rachel a guitar for our three year anniversary. I needed to be sneaky about it so I got a cash advance on my check. The guitar she wanted was two hundred dollars. I had a friend recommend it as a good learning guitar. I was really excited about it because she had no idea! Well then we found out that the repair was going to cost just under three hundred dollars! So much for the surprise. It is things like this that seem to keep happening. Things that don't allow us to feel like we are in a comfortable place. Those things that make you feel like life is going well. I know that it is a matter of perception. We have a good life in comparison to others. I am thankful for that. But I just want to take a little break for the unexpected. Let me live life for a couple months with out some big financial mishap. Unless it is a big increase, or a big fat check in the mail! Now that is something I can handle! God has called us to Portland. I knew going into this journey that it wasn't going to be something that we could just skate through. I knew that we would be faced with many challenges and be stretched in many ways. I just didn't know in what ways those things would come and what effect they would have on our family. I believe that they are making us stronger. Individually and as a family. I don't see them making us weaker.